this morning i woke to clouds and the realisation that i had woken up at 6:30 on a saturday morning.

i lay for a while contemplating the amount of sleep i must have had.

countless 'just-because-i-can' late nights have built themselves up darkly beneath my eyes.

eventually i got up and wandered outside for a look.

i let sooty out and we stood still for a moment and took it all in. this was the first before 7 i had seen in about a month.

we wandered back in. and i went back to sleep.

 

now, it is lunchtime and the clouds are still there, the cool is still there and i am enjoying the sounds of sufjan stevens. 

and i feel quite joyous.

yesterday afternoon, the clouds built up and the thunder roared overhead and the rain danced hard and loud against the ground outside.

it was all a bit beautiful.

 

there is twenty-eight days until i leave for melbourne on a plane. and somehow find my way to nelson's place. and somehow keep myself from being killed by drug dealers and emos at the train station. then, my friends, if i make it that far, i am off to mittagundi!!

it will be quite an adventure and to a certain degree, i am scared. {mainly of drug dealers and emos stabbing me at the train station}.

so perhaps i will wear a stab vest.

or maybe i will just cower under a park bench until nellie comes.

we will see.

 

the end of the school year has come and gone for me. i am now slightly free.

exams are over.

year 10 is over.

and the formal is a distant memory.. of a week ago.

it was a nice night. pretty dresses, swish suits.

it wasn't the most 'formal' of nights, the exterior look at it was nice - the viewing, the mocktails, the photos, mixed with the cringe worthy likes of poses and fake tans.

but a step inside, and it was just a night of dancing made to appear as so much more.

but i enjoyed myself.

the majority of people were in it for the after-party.

"ohhhh when is this going to finish, i just want to go to the after-party."

the night soon ended. and the after-party was attended. and it was good.

the word 'good' isn't that convincing. but good was what it was. fun, and such, is always dampened by the end.

and the end, it seemed came to soon.

 

i'm quite sad that it's all over. but it is.

 

now, summer is here, and jared will be home soon. and, i feel it's time for a little dashboard. <3